hello everyone! it’s kiyomi, and i just wanted to offer you all my album for free, if you don’t have it already
i don’t know if you know, but i’ve stepped away from the music for a bit. to be honest, i’ve been totally burned out. and for those of you who are not independent musicians, this is a very short explanation of what we go through…
it’s a life of instability, where work and money are not consistent. it can be anxiety inducing, but also extremely exhilarating to be doing exactly what you want to do! and we are obviously not in it for anything but our love of music. for some of us, it’s a need and there is no other path.
so i created my album “child in me”, which was released in 2011. i’d literally been working on it since probably 2003. it’s literally a part of me, and the story of my life. it costed thousands to make. i would love to create another album, i would LOVE to! but obviously i have to be realistic and know i can’t keep coughing up thousands of dollars every time i want to record one! so hence, my burnout…
so, why this blog, other than the free download? well, i sang yesterday at my friend’s gig, and i thought, WHY am i not doing what i was born to do?? my soul has been shriveling! and my biggest goal in music is to make it, and try to give it to as many people as i can! share it with the world.
so, i decided i wanted to give away my album to you all, if you don’t have it already. and hopefully, share it if you can, and want to! it’s hard to get it out there just little me trying, so i thought i’d ask for your help!
and i also hoped i could ask a little favor. when you put so much love and energy into something, it can feel really draining to not receive some sort of energy back. i realize the music biz isn’t what it used to be, and music doesn’t see as well as it used to. and i realize that if you have an album, it’s more like a very pricey business card, really, which i’m totally fine with!
but anyway, back to the energies. nothing really gets a second glance without reviews. so i was wondering if after you’ve downloaded my album, you could leave me one on either iTunes or Amazon. it would help me wonders. and maybe, just maybe, i’ll be able to make that 2nd album one day soon
there was a time i didn’t know if my burnout would ever fade, but it did. music makes me happy, so i always have to come back to it. and hopefully i can give you something through it.
i hope to hear from you soon, and all the links are below.
love & music always,
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So something magical seems to happen when i write my goals down and hope for them, and consciously strive for them, but important, NOT BE DESPERATE ABOUT THEM. The same with my dreams, which are different in that they are not just things i can check off of my to do list, but more things i want for my life that may take a bit more time, and maybe some divine assistance, preparation, as well as the right timing.
it seems kinda like a contradiction to really want something so deeply and passionately, yet not be desperate about it. this is something i’ve learned how to do recently, and am still learning how to do. it’s kind of like just trusting and KNOWING. and then just living life and enjoying it!!
yes, goal writing can be useless if done the wrong way, say, in a desperate manner. like you’re gonna FREAK if everything is not checked off by this date and done in this way. and then you just give up because WHY go on, you FAILED anyway! but i’ve learned to just write what i want to hopefully accomplish and if i don’t, then what the hell, i’ll try again next year! and i’m also more honestly aware if something that i’ve wanted to do no longer speaks to me anymore. i’ll just cross it off and get on! and i won’t punish myself for it! REVELATION! ;D
anyway, i’ve had on my list for 2 or maybe 3 years now, to go on a 10 mile hike. i’ve always been drawn to making a goal of some sort, so that i can strive for something. like running the marathon! except that i don’t really run... (and truthfully, it’s for vain reasons, heh heh, but hey i’m being honest! i heard it causes wrinkles, and i feel like they’ll make my boobs sag, haha!! ..shhhh i didn’t just write that)
well, my goal for a 10 mile hike all started out with an 8 mile hike joseph and i went on…which was NOT pretty! ok, the HIKE was pretty and everything i’d hoped it would be. we were in the beautiful catskills, at a wonderful B&B with a claw footed tub! and we had a plan! we would hike 8 miles from the B&B to one of my favorite funkadelic restaurants, The Eggs Nest, and then hike back! coolio!! it would be pretty and perfect!! but…no. it ended up not being so pretty, when we got tired and absolutely FAMISHED!!! like desperately so. before we reached The Egg’s Nest! yes, we’d not even thought to pack water or snacks or anything, really! (something we’ve NEVER forgotten again)
about 7 or so miles into the hike, i started feeling light headed and flushed, and i had to sit down. then hunger hit me like crazy. and i couldn’t get up. luckily there was a bench, and i fell onto it. which was not very convenient cuz we were stuck in the middle of the woods, with nobody to help us get anywhere, and no food!! i was freaking out, like seriously. and poor joseph (who i’m sure was just as tired and famished), was probably freaking out cuz i was freaking out!! i was lying down on the bench with my arms dramatically draped over my face saying “i cannnnnn’t go on anymorrrrrrree, i’m gonna diiiiiiiieeeeee!!!!” “are there any apple trees, we NEEEEEED to find an apple treeeeeee!!!!” “or what about acorns, we need to find an acornnnnnn!!!” “aaaahhhh!!!” but really, i thought we would get stuck there, and it would get dark and then we’d really be screwed. which we look back on now and think it slightly funny... or maybe i’m the only one of the two of us that thinks so… (nose wrinkle)
anyway, joseph did somehow manage to find an acorn, a half rotten one with a hole in it!! i was kind of kidding about that, but it was kind of him to find one for me, wasn’t it? and honestly, we weren’t really gonna eat an acorn even if he’d found a nice one, haha! it just felt comforting to me then and there, that they were around if we really were on the verge of starvation, i mean, squirrels eat them, right!!
well, i passed out for a little bit, then got up and we started walking again, i mean, what else were we to do? so we trudged along for another mile and finally reached The Eggs Nest. then had to call the innkeeper who so kindly drove to us and picked us up, and couldn’t help chuckling at our (ridiculous) grand master hiking plan. and yes, there is a picture that joseph took of me, while i was passed out on the bench, which i will not post here, since it's embarrassing!
but hey, we went on an 8 mile hike. With no food or water. or a flashlight, either. so there. annnd we learned never to set out on a long hike, unprepared!
we’ve been on a ton of hikes since then but this month we set out on my big goal, a 10 mile hike. no pressure or anything - if we didn’t make it, we would try again next time. and because of our past experience and what we’d learned, we were able to enjoy the hike peacefully, with no drama and the strange-in-a-good-way thing is, i felt we were being helped along the way, evident through little coincidences.
so the goal this time was to hike 5 miles, then turn around, and 5 miles back and voila! 10 miles. so we set off on a trail, which a couple of miles into it, ended. so we hiked back the trail, and started on another. so our plan was already off, but whatevs! we sat down on a log and ate apples (notttt from an apple tree, but ones we’d BROUGHT along with us, heh heh, we’ve learned!), and started on another trail, called the orange trail. i started to get nervous about how far we should go, cuz the detour made it hard to know how far we’d actually gone from the starting point. but we kept going, and then the orange trail ended. and literally at that point, my pedometer read 5 miles, exactly. i thought that was an interesting coincidence, and knew it was our sign to turn around and hike back! (i love when i don’t have to make decisions! )
anyway, the hike back ended up being shorter cuz of the detour, but there was a lake we could walk around a few times, to lengthen the hike. of course, at 7 miles, i got really tired, that seems to be my breaking point! and i wanted to stop and try for 10 another time. but joseph seemed really adamant about doing 10 miles, so encouraged me to keep going. so i put a bandaid on my blister (yes, we packed them!), and we kept going. and when we hit 8.3, the longest we’ve ever done, joseph gave me a high five (he really wanted us to do a happy dance but SERIOUSLY, I was like, what? I was too tired and needed to save my energy!!)
towards the end, we had the option of going around the lake a longer vs shorter way. i was so tired at this point, i just said, “shorter way, no ifs ands or buts!!” so that’s the way we went, and then walked back to my car. and RIGHT when we got to my car, my pedometer read 10 miles, EXACTLY, which i thought was another cool co-inky-dink!! and we were EXHILARATED!! it is the best feeling in the world, when you end a hike, but more so when you’ve reached a goal!! yessss!!! 10 mile hike!! and it was a REAL hike, too, with uphill and downhill, and rocks, streams, and unpaved paths!! i wanted to take a picture here, to document, so walked to a nearby rock to do so, and darn, the pedometer now read 10.01, and that’s the pic i got. but whatevs, 10 mile hike!! we did it!
and now I think we'll try for another goal hike, I'm thinking 12 miles…
So I’ve been finding myself seriously interested in Tarot cards recently. i’ve always had a fascination for them, and in the past have had a fear of them, but not until recently have i been seriously studying them, or at least dealing with them everyday.
i have a card-a-day ritual, where i pull a card every morning, right when i wake up while i’m still almost half asleep. that way i’m still not quite in this world yet and not fully conscious. doing this everyday actually helps me to see what each card i pull is really actually about, because i’m able to learn by living the moments, seeing with my own eyes, and feeling the meaning of the cards. i also had done an entire 2014, monthly card draw (back in Jan), and for the month of march, i’d pulled the 10 of Pentacles.
so what does this card mean, and has the happenings of this month turned out to be reflective of it?
well, since i’m still a novice in card reading, i had looked to some books for some insight. 10 Pentacles means massive abundance & wealth. a cycle has come to an end and a turn to the more spiritual side of life. a happy home card. mundane but magic. success, culmination, financial stability. the card shows a gateway in the picture, a doorway into a city. an entrance to the magical space between desire for abundance and its physical manifestation. completion, an applause at the end of the show. which of course means, you’re back to the beginning, of a new cycle. coolio.
well, both joseph and i’s birthdays happen to lie in march. so that in itself signified a 10 of Pentacles kind of march one of my gifts to him was to take him to a wine and food dinner pairing at Le Jardin Du Roi. we’d been there once before, and i’d ordered one of my favorites, salad nicoise, and it was absolutely delish, not to forget to mention the wine anyway, this dinner happened to be on a tuesday, which we would normally not have gone to had it not been joseph’s birthday. we were a bit tired, and it being a work night and all, i was wondering what to expect in terms of me being up for it. but we went because i’d already reserved our spots. and it happened to be the loveliest evening ever! (although the wine flowed a little toooo freely, heh heh!) i happened to be seated next to the nicest woman, and our personalities just totally clicked! it’s like one of those situations where you meet someone and there’s an instant spark, and a knowing that your souls are of the same kind
anyway, we’d planned an impromptu getaway to California a few days before that dinner, and it happened that this woman always goes there, and i was able to take a handful of notes on where to go and what to do. it was like she was planted there so she could help us have a lovely time in cali, since we’d literally booked the trip a little over a week before we were to go, and had no plans whatsoever besides a place to stay. and somehow i don’t feel like this is the only reason we met that night but that’s for time to reveal.
and of course, our trip to LA and Santa Barbara! i’d just had it up to my head with the nonstop snow and cold weather, so i said, “i’d love to go to CA”. so we went, it was as simple as that. but really, i figure, life is short, why not just do the things you want to do? not to mention, it’s on the list of my to do’s, and has been for a couple years already! and really, yes there’s always, “we need to save money for this and that”, but i think that paying for memories, is an amazing investment. also, it was our birthdays!! annnd, we had already decided to go no matter what, but a little after the decision was made, joseph got a bonus from work, so i felt like it was a beautiful gift and a push from the Universe to go
and a wonderful time we had there. we stayed in the most beautiful, artistic, funkadelic b&b ever, owned by the artists who made it that way. i especially loved the bathroom window, there was a huge cactus right outside it! we hiked and hiked, one of our loves. we drank a million green juices and ate a ton of exotic foods. we found my most perfect ever, dusty rose colored heart ring, also on my to do list. (my word of the year is “love”, and i’d been looking for a heart ring to symbolize that). i read the most beautiful book by Cheryl Strayed, “Wild”. and of course, we visited the southern cali wine country and stayed in the town of Solvang, the area where the wine movie i love, “Sideways” was filmed. it was magical…and of course the weather was delicious!!
the majority of my family happens to have our birthdays in march, yes, weird!, so we also had a few family birthday lunches out this month. my family is the best! and my friend Amber had a ceremony for her 6 month old, which happened in March as well. definitely the family card energy here.
so yes, i’d say it was a wonderful month, full of the 10 of Pentacles energy. and i do think i’ve entered a gateway of some sort, that happened this month. i can’t really put it into words just yet, as it’s still just a feeling. but again, time will tell.
and lastly by the way, today’s card of the day happens to be the Knight of Cups. i pulled this the last time Joseph came home from NC, leading me to believe that he represents this particular knight, especially when coming home. but i feel i also pull it when i’m supposed to do something besides waiting for my life to become even more resemblant of my dreams, when i need to take action of some sort. i pulled it the day before yesterday when i felt the need to write, but that didn’t happen. so of course it appeared again today, telling me to take action yet again, and this time i did! by writing this blog today. woohoo!!